Tuesday, December 28, 2010

A Winter Night and a Stranger

She couldn’t wait there for long. Dusk was closing in, and her small feet were already shrinking because of the freezing winter. Just about when she decided to turn around the corner so she could face the road and call for a cab, that she heard loud sounds in the near direction. They were loud enough to disrupt the dead silence but too soft to stir her unperturbed mind. So she continued walking, faster with each step in order to battle away the cold.

A strong gust of wind brushed her frame, unsettling her lose hair. And within the same moment, a figure passed her like a flash of light. Before she could comprehend anything, another figure lunged at her and got her knocking down on the snowy cobbled road. “I’m sorry.. I didn’t mean to hurt you”, two perfect blue eyes shone in twilight and what entered her ears was the most fluid of voices, smooth as scotch. She looked up, this time definitely startled. He stretched out a sinewy arm, offering his hand in the bargain to help her up on her feet. She regained balance and he, too, had recovered his strength by then. He stood struck at the sheer beauty of that angelic face.

I’m sorry again. I never intended to knock you down. Hope you’re able to walk”, he looked right into her eyes as he apologized for his sudden dramatic appearance. She staggered to maintain balance on both her feet and he momentarily clutched her by the arm to keep her. A sizzling current passed through her body making it tremble like a leaf.

Why were you running after him?”, she said as she realized she hadn’t spoken a word ever since she could remember. That was funny. She wasn’t normally the kind who could stay shut for more than 3 seconds. But today was different.

Oh nothing. He was running away with my wallet”, he smiled.
Oh..”, she searched for words, “So were you able to have it back?”

Uh.. no. That’s ‘cause I bumped into you”, he chuckled. A thousand bells chimed in the air.
Well yes. You crashed into Me”, and they had a hearty laugh. Neither realized the stupidity of the joke.

They both paced up the street in the dead cold. No cab could be seen but a distant rumble of wheels came form the opposite direction which told him they were closer to the city now. He momentarily scanned her from the corner of his eye. Her boots, he saw, were small and lower than the calves. Her teal blue dress reached up to her knee over which she wore a pretty white parka which almost made the latter synonymous with the snow. He couldn’t help admiring her perfect brown wavy hair which had lost all consciousness of being in place- thanks to the strong blows of wind.

She realized he was noticing her, and her lips curled in appreciation. She unfolded her hands from her chest to brush aside her unsettled hair and faced him. “So where are we headed?”
He finally looked her in the eye and cautiously let his hand to her cheek, just below her right eye. Before she could realize what he was doing, he came closer and swept his hand over her face in what arrested her body with the most tingling sensations. She smelt the perfume of his tweed and wanted to consume it all. And in the deal, his chin made contact with her hair which seemed soft as silk. He wanted to die in their soft warmth. Both shivered. The night was brutally cold.

Snowflake”, he smiled that honey smile.
Thanks”, and she melted with the honey.

Yeah.. so where are we going?” She tried coming over the awkwardness.
I don’t know about you. But I’m going to stuff myself. Had dinner yet?” He enquired.
No. You?”
Nah. I’ve being roaming aimlessly all day. Moreover, the run behind that crook has increased my hunger pangs greatly!” He said in jest.
Oh”, this time she laughed unrestricted. “You make it sound like you’re some hungry beast! Well”, she continued, “By the look of it, you seem decent. Though my dad has always told me never to walk with a stranger”. She joked back.

Well then your dad was certainly right.” He seemed offended this time.
But do I still seem a stranger?” Comfort once again resurfaced in his voice.

He flirted and she knew it. But it felt right at the moment. Just as it felt right to be walking next to a complete stranger whose, heaven knows, wallet had been picked and who had toppled her over on cobbled cold like a mighty gust of wind!

She didn’t know what to reply to that and he sensed the awkwardness drifting in again.

Hey.. you don’t look like you belong here. New to the city?” He darted a gaze at her.
Erm , yeah. I’ve come from another world”. She chortled gently, battling the discomfort of his sudden stare with an apt reply. He hadn’t heard ever a more pleasing laugh.

They both giggled again. And this time, she was assured of his presence on a bitterly cold winter night, in a foreign land. Quite surprisingly, his penetrating blue eyed gaze had not ruffled her so much as much as the thought of her inability to deal with the intensity of it. She mused at the thought.

Lost in faraway land, eh?” This time he did not look at her.
She didn’t care to answer but looked towards him. His hand that reached up to remove the frost from his nose made her notice brilliant color on the white surface of it.

She caught his hand in a flash. The sticky warm liquid was imparted to the naked skin of her palm and fingers and she let out a little gasp.

Why didn’t you show it before? Your gash looks really deep and serious.”. She herself was surprised at the extreme worry in her voice. Fumbling with her handbag for the first aid kit, she asked him to pull off his scarf. She always kept it with her but couldn’t find it right now. “Just when I needed it the most”, she muttered under her breath, exasperated. He caught the words and smiled to himself, quite contentedly. All this while, he kept his gaze fixed on her being, marvelling at the breathtaking beauty.

She finally pulled out her stuff and began attending to the wound, the gentle touch of her pearl silken flesh melting his pain away. They stood under the light of the lamp post that helped both see each other’s face.

Her hazel eyes, He peered, were full of concern- concern for a complete stranger on a devastatingly freezing night upon a deserted street.

His eyes, She saw, were oozing with gratefulness- the gratefulness of having met a woman who was willingly accompanying him on his unknown journey.

Both smiled at each other, neither aware of the reason or the need of it. Night had taken over and brought with it, a winter that was ne'er before known to either of the souls.

She shivered. He noticed.
He snugly wrapped his assuring arm around her waist. This time, the electric current of his touch made ripples inside her. Both walked along like it was the most natural thing in the world to do.

Dinner?” He winked.
Im starving”. She begged.



Thursday, December 23, 2010

MindScramble.

It’s a lil’ groggy..
A lil’ too cold..
And a tad too dreary gettin outta bed..
I need some sun..
To warm my bum..
Some nice wine down my throat.

I wake up dazed..
A deplorable backache..
Thoughts spilled inside my head..
Morning’s the same
A breakfast so lame..
Im headed nowhere.


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Thursday, November 18, 2010

"Been a hard day's work.. i need to sleep like a log!" and other blah blah.

I have an incomprehensible level of weariness today coupled by an extreme saturation of having stooped over the last 4 hours, on reading 3 varieties of newspapers, straining myself on an ultra crude mattress bed! All this and my mind constantly boggled over whether it should read General Knowledge or figure how the Jacobins established the Reign of Terror or maybe, how successful were Akbar's revenue policies!

However contrarily, i am in incredibly jovial spirits today. Not the kind of happiness that'd make carve lopsided grins and hum romantic tunes( duh!) but the kind when one feels the cozy satisfaction of having lived a productive day. After I’d literally sapped the newspapers of the hullabaloo over Obama's India visit and the successful release of Suu Kyi, i was myself sapped of any reading abilities that i contained. Further still, i got down to doing some bit on the Indian Constitution from my Pearson book. And the following hour saw me trying to mug up our six fundamental rights. Woof! It’s the squeal of amplified delight!

That was it. It is only for a minimal rare chunk of our lives that we care to live successful, honest days. Honestly, there may be a handful of exceptions who'd disagree with me. The way i spent my day today has given me a new spark for tomorrow. The immediate effect is that i want to put my experience down in words for the world to see! I want to be proud of the fact that i did not let another day go waste. Life is precious. Life is a gift and one must seek ways to infuse happiness into it. Let us stop complaining about the lack of time. Let us stop crying over the drain of energy that causes us to put off all our work to tomorrow. It is not time that we lack. It is the will we must gather to make use of that time.

Make use of each moment that comes your way. Spend it in the most wonderful breaths you can, whatever the means available. The end result is that you'll begin loving your life and would even rejoice the feeling of having cramped your neck and shoulder over heaps and heaps of news!

And when you sleep each night, you'll find the most soulful number playing in your head.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Another Wasted Me..

When sittin in the class tryin to concentrate on the strict old woman's tightly pursed lips that make rather cute angels as she begins to deliver a lecture,i only end up in desperate attempts of tryin to muffle the sounds of my ever too-frequent yawnings. At moments, my hands involuntarily reach up to the back of my neck, where many a wet locks have gelled together to form a single big curl. Then i push them to one side while the guy next to me futher stiffens uncomfortably in his place.

So drab are my days, and today was no different. So many classes wound up in one go. Stretched on until 2.30 with not even a pee break. I'd even asked someone to get me a Sunfeast. Dont think anybody cared. Bah! Such is life.

I am undergoing another one of those "un-Aishwarian" phases.. when every object of nature, every human soul seems to be plotting against me. I feel sleepy but the bed looks repulsive. I wanna write but cannot frame the right phrases. I wanna share but lack the company. I wanna cry, laugh but emotions fail me each time!

I wanna throw up, but my body cannot afford to.

Hmmm.. How many voodoo dolls would i need to make to kill civilisation?

Stale Pizza Decisions

Some decisions are better,
If made a day later..
Like stale pizzas taste nicer..
On a pretty microwave platter,
When warmed,
The next morn.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Apologia

I take the opportunity of using this public platform to seek apology for a deed i committed in extreme carelessness.

On my behalf, i'd like to defend myself by accepting that i conducted the activity in a rather casual manner, and that i had never the slightest bit of idea that it would ever cause this grave a stir.

I hope the persons involved ARE reading THIS.

I am extremely sorry for the words i wrote on the concerned forum( Facebook). I am, in fact, apologetic in greater measures for the remarks were made by me for a well esteemed faculty member of my college. I know what i did was exceedingly wrong and quite immature to be done by a final year student.

However, the comment i made was absolutely nonchalant and made in a gesture of play. ( And there were many more involved in it). Moreover,  since it was a personal view being expressed on a private page, im only hoping that i be given the benefit of doubt, and that i be let off on grounds of democracy/freedom of speech.

Furthermore, the other remarks made on the page (which incidentally belonged in my name) were not laid down by me, but by a few other students, whose power of speech i cannot control for natural reasons. I therefore hope, that i will not be held guilty for the gestures of third party members.

I am, once again, really regretful that my word(s) potentially hurt the sentiments of the person concerned. Religiously sorry, again.

I hope you ARE reading this.

Thank you. I seek your apologies.

Aishwarya Kandpal.
September 4, 2010

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Our Inherent Goodness

I attribute this piece to the amazing genius of someone i adore, respect and love immensely. Do read..


" There's a certain goodness in all of us - a will, an urge, a wish to be good, to help , to care, to reach out, to listen ,to consider ,to be fair ,to do a greater good.
When u feel such a thing, bring it out. Act on it. There's never a better time to listen to such a voice than now. Good actions follow further good actions and then, it becomes a habit. Later, our instinct.

Its okay to do a li'l good now and then.
Go ahead.

The world needs you. "